It feels like every time I post a journal here it only says how stressful and annoying my life is. Sorry it just seems like I can't bother writing the good stuff because I'm always too busy enjoying it

For those lazy to read this, please just skip to the last line...

Well today was a sucky day. I was invited to my sister's in-laws for bbq and even though i really didn't want to go, i still went just to be nice. Then at some point my bro-in-law just seriously starts annoying me and I answered back in a "not meaning to hurt anyone way": "screw you". Seriously what's so bad about saying that? I mean the meaning of that saying is not the same as the point meant by it. I simply meant: "just leave me alone". Surely it's better than "fuck off!".

But then my sis and he totally went ballistic on me when they were taking me home, saying how that was the worst insult i could have said in front of his parents, and saying it twice was just way off. Then I got a lecture on how I don't think what I say. Seriously if I'm so damn annoying, why on earth did they invite me over?

I just don't get it. I also hate it when you say something that's insulting to another person (by complete accident of course) and they act totally ok, and then one week later they act totally insulted and angry towards you. Where's the logic behind that?! I'm just so fed up with being nice to people. Why should I even try going out of my way being nice, when I get completely misunderstood and criticized. Can't people just give me some slack and understand that I'm just that kind of person.

So for the finale: for people who know me in real life (and for those who don't) am I really some terrible brat who is uncivilized? cause that's what my sister is trying to tell me...

Just random update. Ok I've seriously been overreacting. Just ignore everything I've said before

The piece for the collab-da project [link] here's the finished piece from my group [link]

They have been bugging me all day. So it ends up it was just a joke gone bad

Read this journal [link]

So i got a new puppy, really cute, nice and all

And i feel totally clueless with her, especially since she's technically speaking mine, and i'm responsible for like her "education"

I dunno why i'm so stressing about this but it seems like i manage to do everything wrong

Any advise on releasing the nerve tension, caused by this "stress"?


Also, i'm like a vacuum cleaner for every flu possible, i caught one small flu on thursday
I was jogging on thur, riding on fri, running around down-town helsinki on sat and running around helsinki + tallinn on sun, so now i know the true meaning of "stay in bed when sick"

I also got tagged
i promise to TRY and put that in my next journal

I have been cleaning my gallery, and still cleaning it, like crazy. I have edited some of my old photographs, added frames, deleted crappy stuff or mostly sent it to my scraps section. So people please take a look at my old stuff and tell me what you think about the "new" look.

How is everyone?